The Druggie, The Hopeless, and The Concerned

So Jaz and Jamie broke up, again. But I think it's a little more serious this time around... As soon as I read her post and went back to go talk to her about it, I was speechless. Soon after, I realized one of the only things me and Jaz had in common was Jamie. Ha... Now I have absolutely nothing to talk about. I don't know, I just feel... lost. Confused. Concerned. Gah, I have a headache.

I'm not exactly sure if my brain is being stupid because something seemingly impossible has happened, or what. I want to be real cool friends with Jaz, but I can never really say anything, which makes it feel like I'm hindering it or something. bah. onto other things...

My schoolwork is lame. I have so much to do. Overwhelming is the correct word. Other than that, I'm a person that clings to inspiration and perfection. I can't stand the thought of making a story or poem that doesn't 'resonate' with me. Sometimes it's not how easy something is, but how limited it is.

For instance, I got that new 7 string almost a week ago... I haven't made anything that sounds right with it. I mean, what good is a 7 string if you don't use it? It's starting to effect Koa, too. When I got we were all, "Yea let's jam! This'll be great!" and in the second we were all tuned up and ready to go, boom. Wall. We both kind of looked at each other and exchanged expressions. If anything, I kind of want to tear the damn thing out and just have a good old 6 again. 6 is plenty. Unless I'm up for a Grind or DM band, There's no use in having a lower string.

God this is eating me up.

Perception in White

Things are looking better. It almost seems as if the more me and Erica talk, the better things get. Which is a fantastic, and makes me want to punch myself. Why didn't I think of that? Maybe I did, but I was too angry. Who knows.

Koa, John, and I went to the fair today. In suits. Felt like a badass gentleman. How many times do you see guys our age mobbing around in suits? Thought not. :noid Fun stuff. For a while we started acting like mobsters, but then it got lame. Me and Koa started doing stupid little mime acts we could do in suits. Reminds me of Freshman year, hahaha. I miss Acting class.

Logan's in a bit of trouble. They still haven't restocked on food. =\ Little worried for them. Also, Logan thinks he's unlocked some kind of ability... Intense shit. Wish he could share :(

Other than that...? Oh yea. Turning sixteen tomorrow.
YYYUUUUSSSSSS. And this year I finally haven't seen my presents beforehand. :P

Awesome. Hopefully things get a lot better. I'm almost looking forward to tackling school. [Usually when I have a good mindset like this, I do excellent in school. ^^ ]

Also,
Jaz needs to get on moar >:(