In the life of the individual man, virtue is the sole good; such things as health, happiness, possessions, are of no account. Since virtue resides in the will, everything really good or bad in a man's life depends only upon himself. He may become poor, but what of it? He can still be virtuous. A tyrant may put him in prison, but he can still persevere in living in harmony with Nature. He may be sentenced to death, but he can die nobly, like Socrates. Therefore every man has perfect freedom, provided he emancipates himself from mundane desires.
It's almost like optimism with Buddhism under-tones. I figure this is how I feel right now. I mean, it's shit here, no doubt, but It's not all that bad. Hell, I haven't even done a whole lot of homework since I've been here. The most I do is clean and cook.
Also, I don't have much to look forward to in getting out, anyway. John's upset and butt-hurt, Logan and Koa may as well be in Anchorage already, and Jamie and Jaz are in NY. I may not be able to hang out anymore, but I still have myself. Besides, It's not as if anyone has disbanded from anyone else. [Except John.] Hell, because of what happened in NY, Jamie and Jaz are living together. I can talk to them more this way.
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So, I've been seeing this councilor. And he's getting annoying. *sigh* I kinda lied to the guys about how I got there... I don't know, I guess I just didn't want them to worry about it, or bother me about it. I wanted a councilor myself, i was feeling kinda bad. But now,
Fuck. My life's just uneventful. So instead of talking about my problems or things that might help, we're talking about nothing. And this fat bastard is gaining money from the state for it.
We talked about Politics. Then we talked about alternate energy. This week It'll probably be philosophy. What next? I might just say fuck it. This is stupid. I'll contact him when I've got something worth sharing. Unless he's trying to coax something out of me, [which he's not,] then I'm done. This is stupid. It takes up time. Hell, half of my problems I figure out on my own.
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I've been playing GTA4. It's pretty amazing. uhh... That's pretty much all I've been doing. I don't have the motivation to workout anymore, there's nothing to do outside, I have no immediate friends, I have nothing to do.
...I think I'm going to get malnutrition here soon. All we have money for is those $1.27 Tostinoes pizzas that feed one person at a time. Erica bought some [vegetarian] protein shakes... They taste like shit. =\
annddd... I'm gonna stop for now.
Peace
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