Wow. This is horrendously fucked up. Life right now is... disgusting. Completely wasted. Fucking gutter. I'm wasting away in this cage... All I have is boycott tactics. Makes me feel semi-better, but I'd rather be free and have a choice; go out and have a walk, I don't know.
It seems that even IF I got out, there would be no one around. Who am I going to make stupid jokes with? Who is it that I can feel entertained, even if we're not doing anything? No one, anymore. The guys are more or less gone. This whole thing is fucked.
School's almost out. That means I'm going to be a work slave soon. Erica's bent on getting me a job.
I mean, it won't be too bad, I get to be outside. [I'm getting a job at JL, grounds crew.] It's not as bad as sitting inside flipping burgers all day. My only concern being the uneventful days I call life. I'll feel as if It's a fucking nightmare.
Like I've said, I do nothing. I eat, clean, cook, shop, play games, and go to bed. I can't even play my guitar anymore... I mean, I URGE to play, I just can't come up with anything. When I do, it either sucks or I never remember it. Hell, it's hard enough to write these blogs.
I can't talk to my councilor about anything, because THAT'S how uneventful life is now. FUCK.
This is annoying. Horrible. Have I already written about this? Blah. oh well.
When are those two fuckers gonna call? Maybe I should call them. Hopefully they haven't run away again.
Whatever, I'm done. Thank god I'm over pre-pubescent depresshit, or I'd probably be ranting on about how I should suicide. No worries, I'm not that fucking stupid. I have no urge to die, only to stop this boring bullshit. I'm not my sister, and I will never live like her.
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